Introduction

This report chronicles not a single event, but a triptych of three interconnected psychedelic journeys undertaken with my partner, Yaşar, over several months. The first trip was one of profound discovery, where I unearthed the Spiral—a tool for navigating the currents of time and reality—and glimpsed the terrifying, looping consequences of its misuse. The second voyage plunged us into a stark, painful disconnect that threatened to sever our bond entirely. The third and final journey, however, was an ordeal of cosmic apotheosis. In it, I confronted the true nature of our disconnect—a multi-dimensional barrier I came to call the Mesh—and was forced to assume the role of God to fix a universe I had inadvertently broken.

This led to a terrible, binding decree that forbade us from ever truly seeing one another again. What followed was an act of divine engineering, a desperate attempt to hack the laws of existence and forge a workaround. It was a solution that allowed our love to survive, but at the cost of a fundamental and agonizing compromise woven into the very fabric of reality itself.